Like Mike, I'm glad you put a qualifier on that decision. But it does indeed seem like one with tradeoffs either way. It takes me back to my decision to leave Iowa or stay. One came with many sure things but serious impediments to growth. The other came with many unknowns. If I'd known how brutal the transition would be, I might have chosen those sure things. Still hoping that five, ten years hence I'll look back and be thankful for growth.
But sometimes we're squeezed between that rock and that hard place, and there's pain either way, eh?
Difficult choices hopefully slow us down, and have us assess what truly matters. From the parts you have shared with me, your choice to be near your kids is a powerful statement of your love for them.
One thing I don’t do is rehash my decisions. I trust my heart to know that given all my insight, I have made the best choice possible for myself in this moment.
I am so glad you are at peace with your decision. I really like the ‘not for today’ approach in coming up with the right decision that you know and that you can feel. Continued comfort in the days ahead. 🤗
Thanks Mike. Difficult decisions might take some time, but I don’t shy away from them. Following my heart is what I’ve learned to do for myself. Thanks for the kind wishes.
Such an important, wise teaching Teyani. And the reminder to get those wiggles out was an especially good reminder, sometimes feeling like three conversations are always going on in this head. “I twist and shake each leg like a ten year old trying to sit through a sermon.”
I feel the bed rock strength of your decision to not pursue spinal surgery. That must feel like a relief, but a strange one at that, knowing how much pain you suffer. I can’t remember if I ever connected you to my friend Brianna who also suffers from extreme CFS leaks? If not, let me know and I’ll DM you her info. She’s a PA and has devoted her work to helping others like her, as I know she’s found some good management interventions.
Thank you for your understanding. It means a great deal to me. And yes, you’ve told me about Brianna.
You deeply understood how huge this decision has been for me. And yes, an odd relief is putting it mildly🤭. As I fluctuate between some pretty huge extremes of high and low pressure I do what I can do in the moment to respond. I also know that if it continues to get worse, it would be possible to revisit the spine surgery option.
Since I’ve had several days in a row where I was able to be upright for a couple hours, I know deeply that I made the right choice for me in this now.
Meditation is a lost art in our modern world, cheers
Actually, it isn’t any more. There are so many meditators now, all across the globe.
Beautiful, wise, practical. An important guide for listening to our intuition. Thank you, Teyani.
Like Mike, I'm glad you put a qualifier on that decision. But it does indeed seem like one with tradeoffs either way. It takes me back to my decision to leave Iowa or stay. One came with many sure things but serious impediments to growth. The other came with many unknowns. If I'd known how brutal the transition would be, I might have chosen those sure things. Still hoping that five, ten years hence I'll look back and be thankful for growth.
But sometimes we're squeezed between that rock and that hard place, and there's pain either way, eh?
Difficult choices hopefully slow us down, and have us assess what truly matters. From the parts you have shared with me, your choice to be near your kids is a powerful statement of your love for them.
One thing I don’t do is rehash my decisions. I trust my heart to know that given all my insight, I have made the best choice possible for myself in this moment.
Thanks for your caring support Josh
I am so glad you are at peace with your decision. I really like the ‘not for today’ approach in coming up with the right decision that you know and that you can feel. Continued comfort in the days ahead. 🤗
Thanks Mike. Difficult decisions might take some time, but I don’t shy away from them. Following my heart is what I’ve learned to do for myself. Thanks for the kind wishes.
Such an important, wise teaching Teyani. And the reminder to get those wiggles out was an especially good reminder, sometimes feeling like three conversations are always going on in this head. “I twist and shake each leg like a ten year old trying to sit through a sermon.”
I feel the bed rock strength of your decision to not pursue spinal surgery. That must feel like a relief, but a strange one at that, knowing how much pain you suffer. I can’t remember if I ever connected you to my friend Brianna who also suffers from extreme CFS leaks? If not, let me know and I’ll DM you her info. She’s a PA and has devoted her work to helping others like her, as I know she’s found some good management interventions.
Thank you for your understanding. It means a great deal to me. And yes, you’ve told me about Brianna.
You deeply understood how huge this decision has been for me. And yes, an odd relief is putting it mildly🤭. As I fluctuate between some pretty huge extremes of high and low pressure I do what I can do in the moment to respond. I also know that if it continues to get worse, it would be possible to revisit the spine surgery option.
Since I’ve had several days in a row where I was able to be upright for a couple hours, I know deeply that I made the right choice for me in this now.
Teyani, "Not for today," sounds like a good choice for now my friend. I am holding you in love and light. 💫💫💫
I knew you’d understand!
I do! I just thought of Scarlett O'Hara - "I can't think about this now. I'll go crazy if I do. I'll think about it tomorrow”